I had failed my second attempt at suicide and was deep into an eating disorder. The defeat I was submerged in led me to my first experience in the practice of surrender. I remember thinking, “God, if I have to be here then show me what I’m supposed to do.”
As a gymnast, diver, and swimmer, I managed to scale my education to graduate a year and a half early from high school.
From high school, I went to massage therapy school and got certified to work weekends while attending University of Nevada Las Vegas and obtaining a bachelor’s degree in business administration. After graduating college, I went on to work in some of the hottest nightclubs in Las Vegas, making a six figure income, working only a few nights a week. I bought my first house and rotated between an Audi, Lexus, and Porsche.
In 2010, I left the nightclubs to build on my other skills. I pioneered an industry by being the first ever manager to a professional pole dancer. I managed her first world tour and even accompanied her to an event in South Africa. By the end of 2010, I had partnered up with former Playboy and Hardtail photographer, David D’ Angelo, to create Vertical Art and Fitness, a well respected and sought after international publication aimed specifically at giving the growing pole dancing industry the credibility it deserved.
In 2012, everything came to a screeching halt after my little brother was found dead of a heroin overdose. I didn’t even get to say goodbye. This began the domino effect that led to adrenal burnout, illness, loss of my business, and financial hemorrhaging. I found myself ultimately lost and without a compass. I had no choice but to resign myself to the reality I found myself in: Nothing was in my control. I had lost everything.